So near yet so far.
It kills to feel like this.
He probably won't care but why am I feeling this way?
I can't help crying at every thought of it but it's not my choice to.

So we broke up two days ago because my heart's still with yw. Everybody knows and everybody understands. I feel like shit now and tomorrow's maths. Fuck. My mum promised that she'll give me 100bucks for every distinction I get. 100bucks is already mine cos last year Malay distinction. But whatever lah eh. Money can't buy everything. It can't even buy happiness which I am lacking and in need right now.

Kill me if you're hurting me. I'd rather.

And so the story of my dying phone continues. I'll miss it when it totally dies. The love story. The sweet past. Ahh. Beatiful days that I'll never forget. Thank you for them.

One more week to the end of the whole mess. Doesn't make me happier.

3 months now and I'm still feeling like fuck. I still wish I can kill myself. I still prefer to be dead. I still am longing for what's gone. I still want an us again. Fuck. I hate myself more and more now.
7:14 PM