Currently, I'm installing the Sony Ericsson Disc2phone stuffs. So in case my iPod breaks down in the middle of nowhen, I can rely on my phone(:

So yesterday I decided to pierce it through again. Or just create the back hole again so I used the initial sharp stud to poke through. Fucking hurts but expected. At least I know what to look forward to. And so the hole is back up again. Yay.

Shopping with Syl tomorrow. MARINA! Err, ya whatever. And then off to get our hair dyed(: LOL. Which I hope will still allow us to return to school since we'll be going to school on Tues for the briefing on entering schools for the first three months. On Tues, I'll be getting my contacts. First time after so long of scaring myself that I'll go blind if I wear it again. And wed to sat, quack chalet. 29-30'll be 2/1 chalet. And 9-11 Dec'll hopefully be Sports Capt camp. Hahaha.

EH MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING. I lovelovelove slippers. I adore slippers. LOL. Flip flops'd do just fine. Haha. And this time, I don't want anymore limegreen bears or orange flowers. Because I already have them and they're special so I don't want to add more to the collection. And I love what I have so they'll always stay with me. I love meaningful letters and cards too. Actually, just that'll do. Haha. As long as you're sincere lah.

I had this weird weird dream last night. Fucking weird. There was Choy, Fred, Zach and YW. Bloody fuck. Had something to do with the school canteen. And then Choy failed his NAPFA and then YW made me train him up. Fred was like a cheerleader or some fuckhead shouting in the middle of the canteen. Zach was the timer or some sort. Ya, whatever. Can't remember much of it. Weird sia.

Okay, there's some error installing the shit. Loser. I'll get someone to complete it for me someday somewhen. Not that I need it urgently.

Taufik's album'll be out on Thurs. Hady's is out and so will Taufik's. I am so deeply in love with them. I can't imagine what life would be for me without them. Oh my gosh. I'd probably be some cuntface walking down the street listening to Coldplay. Okay, whatever with the Coldplay.

My flu's getting better but my cough's getting worse. Fuck lah. I hate it when I'm down with all these viruses. I feel so unhealthy. I have never been down like this for so long, damn it. And my mum's been forcing me to gulp the Pei Pa Kao or however it's spelt. It tastes horrifuck. God. Help me.

I've been so fuck to him. I just want him to get on with other people but he doesn't seem to get the message. One thing's for sure, I can't love him as much as I loved YW. I know that sounds fucking ridiculous after all that I've said about YW but ya, it's true. I don't know what game's my heart playing but it's okay. If life is a game, I'll play along. He's such a fuckhead. Even when I told him that we can just remain as how we are, he seems to not want to accept that and move on with other girls, which I'm sure he's good at considering he's always been doing that. Fuck lah. Stupid YW. It's all his fault that I'm afraid to fall in love again because I'm afraid I can't love again just as how I loved him. Argh. I feel like..like turning him upside down and tie him to the tree while the cats eat up his hair. Do cats eat up hair? Okay, fine. Dogs then. But he's not afraid of dogs. Urgh. I know, I know. Let him stay on the tree in the sun while his head itches like crazy. Hahaha. Right.

Been loving and appreciating life as it goes by. Loving someone without being loved back was never a sin. Though I'm not moving on, it's okay because at least I hear that he's leading his happy life and I'm happy enough about that. He has his rights and so I will shut myself from his life and get lost elsewhere. It's okay not to be loved back. It was never made a rule.


















6:57 PM