Well, tomorrow's a start of another week. Another long dreadful week. School's unbearably far and thinking of the distance just kills more of my brain cells. Supposed to have class dinner tomorrow but we'll see how things go.

I dreamt of running an endless race. A race of uncertainty. I'm uncertain about alot of things. The future beholds much uncertainty and as for me, I'm uncertain about my own actions and emotions. I know things are much better now and I'm not like so emofuck anymore. But I still feel that there's more that I need to know. I am living in a world of ignorance where ignorance is definitely not bliss. Sometimes, I don't even understand half the things I'm saying. Beats me why.

I miss those days when I can just sit and think about how I feel. I miss real quality me-times. Now, I can spend an hour on the train every morning not thinking about anything or get nothing out of whatever that I'm thinking. And in the end, feel so sore about the whole thing. I don't even know what the shit is the whole thing. Whatever. I'm starting to not make much sense here. I shall blame it on the lack of sleep or proper rest.

Not looking forward to 19 more days. I don't know if I'll cry out of happiness or sadness. Been eons since I last cried. Hah, fucking gay. I haven't felt sadness for quite some time. Real sadness. Or maybe I'm too numb to feel it anymore. I've seriously been preparing myself for the worst that could happen when the hoohas of the results appear. I've been telling my mum about the courses in TP which interest me and she knows - she knows that I've been feeling down about my results though it's not out yet. If that's the thing that would sotp her from harbouring hopes on me, it shall be then.

My passion for Malay has died down when I stepped into my first Malay lesson last Friday. Screw that fuckfaced man. He doesn't deserve to teach such a beautiful subject. And because of him, I have zero interest in attending anymore Malay lessons. I barely speak proper Malay and now he's killing my passion; asshole. I am equally annoyed and disheartened. I shall spare the details.

I don't see my relevance in this world anymore. &my blog is like dead though I know I have some blog stalkers. Hah.
5:24 PM