This June will be the most memorable June in my life. My granduncle passed away last morning at 2 am. My late grandmother's only brother who has the same mother and father. (they have step-siblings) Barely a month. Only 16 days and now he followed his sister. My mum went off to Malacca to give a visit. Hopefully she's safe on the roads of Malaysia now. And I realised how unpredictable death is. He was hospitalised probably a month ago. Not waking up for some time and then he was transferred to the normal ward when he got better and he was discharged after that because he recuperated fully(which was when my grandma passed away). And now, he's gone; just like that.
In my 16 years and 6 months exactly, my grandma's death was the first in my circle of people. I swear I am like a mountain tortoise. And now, there's this 2nd. I'm sad but not as devastated as I was when grandma passed away. Oh wells, God determines everything. He loves Mak Tok more than I do. I know.
And I feel refreshed after praying. Thank you, God for everything that you've given and will be giving me. And thank you for letting me survive throughout Maths today which was such a killer.
That maths paper is the ROAR paper I have ever attempted all my life. 8 questions. I could only finish 7. Time was not on my side. And I'm only confident of the first four questions. Help. I don't wanna get retained. History tomorrow and my last paper for this JCTs! Thank God:D
Please let me dream of the question that will come out tomorrow.
I'm missing MAMAAA.
and i need to study.
anyway when i was praying, i kept thinking about death. i kept thinking if i dont repent now, would God still give me the chance to? i know i dreamt of the long years ahead but will i ever get to see it? i'd always thought mak tok will live to see me get through my uni, see my cousin be a doctor, see my bro with kids...but God has everything in his hands and we are his humble servants who shouldn't live like proud morons on the streets because we don't know when we'll just go.
d e a t h.
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