Whilst I was in the ambulance last night, all I had in mind was, "Why did I even bother with all these nonsense?"
No, I wasn't brought to the hospital or anything of that sort. I think it was Mr. Koh who drove me home in an ambulance. Reaching to 100km/h on not-highway streets. Don't worry, the sirens and lights weren't on because it's not even operating for duty.

Back to where I started. I wondered, "Why the shit do I even care to turn up for this duty on Christmas Day when I could actually be better off shopping with my parents?"
I thought of the cadets and Tim. The nine who're willing to burn their Christmas and come for the duty. Words can never express how much I love each and every one of them in each of their special way. There are times when I'll get so mad and reprimand them but I know I do it not because of the rank but I do it as their sister. As I wait anxiously for their calls telling me they're home, I postponed my bath time so that I won't miss any calls. And Tim who'd think of me and Ying even while eating his log cake. Tell me, which of your seniors will do that?
I thought of the rest of the officers. The grade 6 plus Aik Seng to be precise. Again, words can never express how much I love them. Though I may be the only female amongst the male, they never fail to make me feel accepted. I've had thoughts of quitting SJAB, but I don't have a heart to leave all of them. Even when they can be such anal creatures sometimes, I know that life in SJAB won't be the same without them.

Yesterday's duty taught me one thing, Singapore should continue its courtesy campaign and that Singaporeans have almost zero sense of alignment. I got banged into countless of times and I didn't hear any single "Excuse me" throughout the night.

I saw a friend who didn't see me. Seems like he's totally moved on and I'm happy for him now though I wish he won't forget us.

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