If only there were more public holidays, if only there were more hours in a day, if only I could be at more than one places at a time, if only I could arrange my time well. If only.

College Day. 4N gathering. CheeKeen's gathering. Hera OGL gathering. 4 places to be in one day. Of which, three are gatherings that won't take place again probably until much after A's. I'm making a point to be at all three places at least for some time. I don't want busy schedules to take a toll on me and actually running my life for me; cancelling my plans and rejecting invites for me. I want to be there and I'm going to cherish my time there.

I've been embracing alot of emotions for the past week. Tonnes happened but I kept my cool and I'm still running strong. One more week and I can at least have ample sleep. It's a wonder how I want to do well for the monster and yet not giving my body the necessary nutrients it needs. I'm torturing myself but if I don't, then I'm torturing myself in another way - not doing well for the monster and screwing my future. Torture reminds me of sufferings.

From Mr Norman New," Sufferings is the consequence of desires." Which I inferred to be, the less you desire, the less you suffer. But I must desire to do well for the monster so I will push myself to my limits or even beyond my limits (not till I reach a gunpoint) to achieve pleasurable results. And what's the pleasurable results, you ask? I'm not certain but I"m hoping for AAB/AAC. The B/C for History, duh.
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